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The Chronicles Of Mummy Liew
. . . . .When silliness overthrows routine. . . . .


Sunday, July 15, 2007

I am confused recently...

I just mentioned that kelvin and i haven't been having problems these days, and straight after the comments left my mouth, something happened.

is God testing my faith?

he always had long hours doing his job and i admit i resented that to a certain extent. i mean, we have a family together and i would naturally want him to spend more time with family rather than work.

i know money is tight as lincoln is growing up and requires more therapy and medication. so he is wrking extra hard just to provide better life for us.

he is a good daddy, no doubt.

but i felt that we are slowing drifing apart....

we had a huge fight the other day because he din come home at all that night.

he told me he would be going for a chalet organised by his staff and he wouldn't take long.... in the end, i went to bed thinking he would be home soon.

by 6.30am, i awoke and realised that im all alone in the bedroom.

he din even bother telling me he wasn't planning to come home.

do you know how much it hurts?

the next day, i was still fuming cos he din bother to call me at all.... i went to work alone and the rain was pouring as i stepped out of the MRT station. i walked in the rain, pitying myself that even heaven is tearing because my hubby had decided to do things his own way....

in the end, he called my office at about 3pm and said he wanted to see me.....

i was so mad inside i wasn't thinking straight. i felt like i was being treated like his roommate....

i asked him why he din called me to at least tell me he wasn;t going home. he told me he planned to but he was afraid he would wake me up....

then he went for a few drinks with his staff and he planned to sms me, but he forgot bout it as he was abit high on alcohol.

HE FORGOT.

he forgot he has a wife waiting at home for him.

he forgot the wife was worrying about him non stop.

he forgot.......

i tell you, it really hurts like nothing else....

i told him that if he ever do that again, i will leave him and bring lincoln along. i mean it....

he said he understood....

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i really want to know how to make my marriage work again....

i tried to control my temper, we din even quarrel for some time already...

in my opinion, i have tried everything possible....

i dun nag him about coming home late cos he doesn't like it....

i tried to find my own activities to occupy myself so i dun have to bother him while he is wrking....

i THINK im trying my best, but is my best EVER good enough for him???

is love fading????

I'm trying to be optimistic, but due to the fact that the frens around me. more than 70% have failed marriages, sometimes i just cannot help but think otherwise....

all i know is that if one day the marriage really fails, i can only depend on myself and pick myslef up.

what cannot kill me can only make me stronger.

Brain freezed @
4:57 PM


Tuesday, July 10, 2007

andy came back last Thurs... his grandma passed away...

It wasn't too bad, cos his family knew it was coming, his grandma led a fruitful life, so it was better to let her go than suffer in pain...

andy bought me another absolut vodka!!

So now i have:

- absolut pears
- absolut ruby red (grapefruit)
- absolut citrus (dunno if its the correct name, i know its orange flavored)

i want to collect them all!!!!!

Brain freezed @
6:56 PM


Wednesday, July 4, 2007

I'm so tired...

nothing much happening these few days...

life goes on...

lincoln is getting cuter and cuter day by days... he's recognising your speech and reacts in the most adorable ways...

love him!!!

Brain freezed @
11:19 PM