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Saturday, December 15, 2007

How do you know if a person is drifting away from you?

How do you revive a fading passion?

How do you keep the sparks alive?

How?

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I have certain answers to the questions above. I have tried to apply my answers to those questions, yet the questions remain unsolved. Could it be my answers are wrong in the first place?

I have many things i want to talk, want to discuss, want to joke about, want to tease, want to complain, want to be heard, want to listen, want to be known, but yet, i don't think my intended audience has time for me.

He is either busy with work, or with colleagues. but he is never busy... with me. We are now like roomates, living under the same roof. we don't talk about the same stuff, we don't even do things anymore. he is always busy busy busy...

has he neglected me? i am not sure. i think he has. i made an effort to stay up and wait for him, but he will just come home and watch TV. sometimes time would be so late that i would just end up sleeping first and by the time i woke up in the morning, he is still asleep. there goes another chance to communicate.

I dunno what to do. i do not know what is right and what is wrong.

Brain freezed @

3:20 PM

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Thats what i try to tell myself every day when my day ends.

Kelvin's turning 31 tomorrow. We have a whole day planned out to spend with Lincoln.

I can't wait!

Brain freezed @

11:12 AM

Monday, December 3, 2007

Was window shopping with Sherri and sis when i thought i should get a pressie for Kelvin's birthday.

planning to buy a pair of jeans which i saw in dorothy perkins @ P.S, but the branch @ Bugis don't carry the item. Bah.....

i passed by City Chain and they were having a X'mas sale!! Kelvin always wanted a nice watch so i went in to take a look....

50% sale leh!!! Saw a really nice Ellese watch that costs around $450, after the discount, $200++... but i really don't have such a budget, in the end, bought a Sovil Et Titus watch for $165... after 50% discount ok!!! There goes my jeans, the nice pair of shoes which i saw.... all cannot buy liao...

I was thinking, its been nearly 2 yrs since i got him anything fancy. after the arrival of lincoln, we have been quite tight with money. and i really wanted to get him something nice. the watch shall be his xmas gift as well... so for the rest of Dec, i must tahan on bread and nothing else...

but it was worth it!!!

Brain freezed @

11:09 AM

Saturday, December 1, 2007

The start of the Xmas season, a season to be giving thanks and feeling all warm in everyone's heart.

Many things happened and i from such profound experiences, i have learnt:

One must be grateful that no matter how bad certain situations seem, life could be worse that it already is.

To find someone to spend an entire lifetime is like finding a needle in a haysack. but i found my needle and I am determind to keep it for the rest of my life.

Love can be translated in many forms. but the greatest form of love, in my opinion, is one that is selfless and not asking for anything in return. how many times have we love someone so called unconditionally, but in actual fact, we are hoping for the love to be requited? i have never known such selfless act of love, till i have lincoln. it is also i have lincoln that i realised my own family has showered selfless love on me thru all these years. this has humbled me greatly.

Never compare own's destiny with other people. the grass might be greener on other side, but never forget the grass below our own feet is what we hold dear and true.

Every family is its own unique formula and comes with its own unique set of problems and puzzles. one day, i might have difficultly solving the puzzle or even risk losing of what i have, but i must believe my faith and dedication will tide me thru.

Brain freezed @

11:25 AM